“A great accomplishment shouldn’t be the end of the road, just the starting point for the next leap forward.” Harvey Mackay

Today is the last day of the 10 day “shred”, and I ended today with 5 calories to spare — wooo! Tomorrow, you can bet your butt I’m tossing a shot of espresso into that morning smoothie!

The “shred” was much easier this second time around, still craved all those things I couldn’t have but the craving were much more manageable.  The next 20 days are going to be tough, though.  Going an additional 20 days with no dairy or gluten is going to test what little will power I have.  That is a long, long, looooong time to go without cheese, and coffee creamer, and baguettes. 😩 But I am going to push through, I need to see where this will take me, I owe it to myself to see just how much the gluten may be affecting my ability to loose weight. I have no predictions about how this is going to turn out, not a clue.

So, today I made cupcakes for birthday treats for one of my daycare toddlers (don’t think I’ve mentioned yet that I run a daycare in my home). I usually have a few cake mixes tucked away for such occasions, but today I did not.  No big deal, I love to bake — especially desserts — so, I found a chocolate cake recipe and threw them together.  Not licking the paddle on my KitchenAid — pure torture. Not swiping my finger through the batter or licking the spatula — not fair. Smelling them bake — horrible. Not even tasting a single crumb of one of those cupcakes — nearing insanity. And lastly, not eating any of the cupcakes after I slathered them with cream cheese frosting — I think I found my own special hell on earth.

The holidays are coming up, and I do a lot of baking and candy making. This is going to get even tougher than resisting chocolate cupcakes!

But as for tomorrow, I will regain my caffeine, alcohol and minimal sugars. I don’t plan on truly indulging in any of those, I’ll still make sure most of my energy is coming from lots of protein and lots of fresh fruits and vegetables. Oh it’s gonna be nice to have coffee again, though…☕️

Author: lifedeathdieting

My story is the same as most women, all was fine with my health, weight and body -- until I had kids. My metabolism is nearly non-existent, it seems I have to put in 10X more effort as anyone else to loose even 1 pound (yet, I can gain weight almost instantly if I allow myself even a single cheat day), I'm embarrassed to say how many different diets I've tried and bombed, and most days the motivation simply isn't there. I have even met much resistance with people in my life, dieting and loosing weight is such a common topic, I think it is often minimized just because so many people talk about it everyday. Friends and family always brush it off like its something I can do if I just stop whining about it and just do it -- but I can't, I've learned over the last 17 years that it is far more complicated than "just doing it." Exercising is difficult with all the loose skin and fat that sags on my abdomen...but I need to exercise to get all that fat off...but many exercises I can't do because the fat and skin are in the way...it's a loose-loose at the moment. But there is a new dawn on the weight loss horizon, I have finally begin to drop some weight, and I am slowly figuring out where my buggaboos are hiding within my mind and my diet. I am sharing this journey to chronicle the successes and failures on my return to health.

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