“Calm mind brings inner strength and self-confidence, so that’s very important for good health.” Dalai Lama

So, I have mentioned before that I run a home daycare…and this has been a tough week in my house. We have had illnesses, Halloween, toddler tantrums, teething babies, my drywall has taken a beating, non-stop fights and stealing toys, and all around no one has napped well. By the end of each work day I so have been completely mentally and physically exhausted.

This has taken an enormous toll on my motivation and will power.  I have completely flown off the diet rails this week and I am so disappointed in myself. Disappointed that, at age 38, I’m still so weak that I let one tough week totally knock me down, and I immediately caved in to all the bad eating habits that have kept me fat for my entire adult life. Carb overloads, pop, high fat, too much caffeine…I am disgusted with myself.


So, tomorrow I need to get back on track. I’ll have a light load tomorrow with just my 2 older toddlers and one baby. I have some different activities worked out that these two older children can do without the younger ones getting in their way, I’m hoping I can keep them busy and distracted from fighting for just one day

I need to also come up with a new workout plan this weekend. Daylight saving time ends and it will now be dark here in Kansas by the time daycare closes, not to mention the temperature will drop quickly too. We have had a membership to Wildcat Creek for years and have only used it for the fun activities…it’s time to hit the fitness center now!

I did make one observation about my week of destructive eating: I was DEAD TIRED all day, every day. I know what I need to do. In the words of TWD’s Negan…back to it! G’night, y’all.

~~ Amie

Author: lifedeathdieting

My story is the same as most women, all was fine with my health, weight and body -- until I had kids. My metabolism is nearly non-existent, it seems I have to put in 10X more effort as anyone else to loose even 1 pound (yet, I can gain weight almost instantly if I allow myself even a single cheat day), I'm embarrassed to say how many different diets I've tried and bombed, and most days the motivation simply isn't there. I have even met much resistance with people in my life, dieting and loosing weight is such a common topic, I think it is often minimized just because so many people talk about it everyday. Friends and family always brush it off like its something I can do if I just stop whining about it and just do it -- but I can't, I've learned over the last 17 years that it is far more complicated than "just doing it." Exercising is difficult with all the loose skin and fat that sags on my abdomen...but I need to exercise to get all that fat off...but many exercises I can't do because the fat and skin are in the way...it's a loose-loose at the moment. But there is a new dawn on the weight loss horizon, I have finally begin to drop some weight, and I am slowly figuring out where my buggaboos are hiding within my mind and my diet. I am sharing this journey to chronicle the successes and failures on my return to health.

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