“Problems can be experienced as… a chance for renewal rather than stress.” Marilyn Ferguson

So, I have nearly blown it this last month. I have gained some weight back, completely fallen off the wagon on eating healthy and exercising, and the motivation is non-existent. And of course Thanksgiving only egged on the bad eating…but one good thing did come of this dark period of my weight loss — my body simply didn’t want to give in to my old bad habits.

I have felt nauseous and queasy after any meal or snack that was particularly bad. I have gotten heartburn several times (I rarely even got heartburn during any of my pregnancies). Also, my poor sleeping patterns returned with a vengeance! My body is rejecting all my unhealthy ways this time around instead of embracing them like an old, life-long friend and inviting them in to stay as long as they like. Now that Thanksgiving weekend is over, I don’t even want to eat anything fattening and sugary. I tried to snack on some leftover pie tonight and despite the fact that it still tasted amazing, my stomach felt awful not too long afterwards.

My body liked what it had going when the diet and weight loss were steadily rolling along. Now, it doesn’t want to go back no matter how much of a fight my tastebuds are putting up. And I can’t lie, when family saw the difference in my appearance and the compliments and congratulations started rolling in, it felt good. It felt damn good.

I am definitely ready to get back to it, though I did not have time to grocery shop for the week yet. I’ll have to send the hubs on a grocery run during the day tomorrow on his day off.

Oh yes — another incentive for kicking my own ass for the next 6 months — I’M GOING TO BELIZE IN JUNE!!! There’s no way I can be bikini ready by then, but I’ll just get as close as I can!

~~ Amie

Author: lifedeathdieting

My story is the same as most women, all was fine with my health, weight and body -- until I had kids. My metabolism is nearly non-existent, it seems I have to put in 10X more effort as anyone else to loose even 1 pound (yet, I can gain weight almost instantly if I allow myself even a single cheat day), I'm embarrassed to say how many different diets I've tried and bombed, and most days the motivation simply isn't there. I have even met much resistance with people in my life, dieting and loosing weight is such a common topic, I think it is often minimized just because so many people talk about it everyday. Friends and family always brush it off like its something I can do if I just stop whining about it and just do it -- but I can't, I've learned over the last 17 years that it is far more complicated than "just doing it." Exercising is difficult with all the loose skin and fat that sags on my abdomen...but I need to exercise to get all that fat off...but many exercises I can't do because the fat and skin are in the way...it's a loose-loose at the moment. But there is a new dawn on the weight loss horizon, I have finally begin to drop some weight, and I am slowly figuring out where my buggaboos are hiding within my mind and my diet. I am sharing this journey to chronicle the successes and failures on my return to health.

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