“Without leaps of imagination, or dreaming, we lose the excitement of possibilities. Dreaming, after all, is a form of planning.” Gloria Steinem

Wooooooo! Blogging two days in a row, getting back to it! The plan is to write each day, some posts may be super short, quick updates on the diet and exercise, others may be a little longer, little deeper, more touchy-feely…I’ll just see what I can do each day. ❤️

Plans, goals, dreams…there are a lot. All of them are attainable. All require planning and commitment, but for dieting I do need to factor in wiggle room because we all know life will always find a way to interfere. I need to have much better backup plans so when I can’t stay on track I don’t veer too far off course. Holidays, celebrations, vacations, these are always guaranteed diet killers. I need to tackle these times head on when I know I won’t be able to stick to my diet foods, or won’t be able to stay on track exercising when I’m in a car driving literally for days.

Alrighty, so the diet…everything is going GREAT! I am focused, determined, confident, and have a vision of what I want to see at the end of this weight loss journey. Not a crystal clear vision, more of a blurry vision, like me trying to see myself off in the distance without my contacts in. I am realistic in this vision, though. I know that after 4 kids my hips will be curvier, the stomach will never be completely flat again, the boobs will always need underwires, my metabolism will always be sketchy. I think a reasonable goal for the whole process is to get into my medically acceptable weight range for someone who is 40 years old, 5′ tall, and has a medium frame…which, according to this calculator, is as follows:

Whew. That’s a tall order. Even getting to the top of that range, 128 lbs, is a looooooong ways away. This is about what I weighed when I became pregnant with my first baby at age 21. I was in shape and solid muscle back then, I could wear whatever I wanted from any store. Boys, other than the one who knocked me up who I married 😊, actually noticed me — that sure hasn’t happened for a long time!

To help me get to this goal, I have written down two 5Ks on my calendar — Konquer the Konza on September 22 (at the Konza Prairie Nature Trail), and the Little Apple Marathon/5K in November 2 (at Tuttle Creek Lake). Those are both so far away that I have more than enough time to get ready. Anyone up to doing these with me?!

My non-weight-related goal is to get off my ass and get my books down on my computer. These ideas and stories do me no good floating around on my head, they need to be realized, put on paper, refined, edited — and from there, who knows! Maybe it’ll just be something I knock of my list of things I always wanted to complete, maybe they’ll good enough to be published, maybe crazy kids will dress up like my characters at Comic Con someday — I’ll just have to see!

Song time! I may have already mentioned this song in a previous blog, I’m not going to go back and look it up, though, because it deserves mentioning again…Daniel Caesar’s “Blessed“….I just frickin love this song so much. I actually found a YouTube tutorial to learn it on my guitar. Have I ever mentioned how awful I am on my guitar? I’m pretty bad, but that’s not stopping me from trying. I will just say that after 30 years of my left pinky being hooked in a finger rest on a French horn, it is totally useless. Any chords requiring the use of said useless pinky are particularly horrible! Still plugging away at it though, I suppose I should add pinky exercises to the exercise routine…go put yourselves to bed listening to this song…g’night, all.

~~ Amie

Author: lifedeathdieting

My story is the same as most women, all was fine with my health, weight and body -- until I had kids. My metabolism is nearly non-existent, it seems I have to put in 10X more effort as anyone else to loose even 1 pound (yet, I can gain weight almost instantly if I allow myself even a single cheat day), I'm embarrassed to say how many different diets I've tried and bombed, and most days the motivation simply isn't there. I have even met much resistance with people in my life, dieting and loosing weight is such a common topic, I think it is often minimized just because so many people talk about it everyday. Friends and family always brush it off like its something I can do if I just stop whining about it and just do it -- but I can't, I've learned over the last 17 years that it is far more complicated than "just doing it." Exercising is difficult with all the loose skin and fat that sags on my abdomen...but I need to exercise to get all that fat off...but many exercises I can't do because the fat and skin are in the way...it's a loose-loose at the moment. But there is a new dawn on the weight loss horizon, I have finally begin to drop some weight, and I am slowly figuring out where my buggaboos are hiding within my mind and my diet. I am sharing this journey to chronicle the successes and failures on my return to health.

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